My Latest Obsession

For those who know me, it's no news that I'm still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. My mom is always telling me that I need to figure out what my passion is and then do that for a living. That's a nice thought, but I'm not likely to make a decent living holding babies, playing with animals, riding my bike, hunting, fishing, dispensing soup in a food kitchen, or talking about Jesus to homeless people. I mean, I know anything is possible, but that doesn't mean it's probable. The truth is, graduate school is helping me figure out who I am and what I want. And all along I thought you were supposed to already know those things before starting grad school. I thought I did. But leave it to me to do things backwards.

The more I live and learn, the more I realize how messed up things are (things referring to a multitude of issues). I want to change them. I want to make a difference. I want to make this world a better place. I want to ease the burden of suffering carried by so many. After all, if I don't, then why am I here? Surely not for myself. If I die, I want to know that someone's life is better because I lived. And the only way to make this happen is to MAKE IT HAPPEN. Sitting around thinking about doing something is pointless if you don't follow through. You might as well be dead. I mean seriously, WHAT ARE YOU DOING? If your answer is nothing, then you're not living - you're just existing. It sounds harsh, but the truth usually is.

I've always known that I wanted to help people - I just wasn't sure how. This year I've discovered the beautiful world that is the non-profit industry. I feel silly because I'm discovering something that's been under my nose my entire life. All I can say is, the pieces didn't come together for me until recently. I'm still interested in going into ministry, but the way I look at it, I'm in ministry as long as I'm focused on God and sharing Him with others.