Showing posts with label God. Show all posts
Showing posts with label God. Show all posts

15 August, 2011

Judge Not

I find it interesting that the people who have inflicted the most pain in my life were supposed "Christians". It astounds me that people who are supposedly under the control of the Holy Spirit are even capable of being as judgemental, self-centered, and disrespectful as they are. It is no wonder that Christians have a bad rap. It's funny that people think they even have the right to judge others, because outside a court of law, they don't. God warns us not to, telling us that we will reap what we sew, but people don't listen. It makes them feel good to look at someone else and point out everything that's "wrong" with him or her (and subsequently everything that's "right" with them.)

" ...but in humility consider others better than yourselves." Phillipians 2:3

"You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge another, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things." Romans 2:1
"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you." Matthew 7:1 & 2

"Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone." John 8:7

20 January, 2010

In Christ Alone

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm

What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save

‘Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again

And as He stands in victory
Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life’s first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny

No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
‘til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand

28 October, 2009

My Prayer

I want to have joy.
I want to have peace.
I want to be content with where God has me, but discontent with where my relationship is with Him.
I want to be excited about my life.
I want to look forward to things instead of dreading them.
I want to be so thankful for what I DO have that there is no room inside my heart or head to think about the things I DON'T.
Lord, help me get to that place.
And once I do Lord, help me stay there.
In all this craziness that is this life living in this world, help me live IN it but not be OF it.
I love You and You love me.
I want this to the premise for everything I do.

15 July, 2009

Great Is Thy Faithfulness

"No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them. Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:5-9

01 July, 2009

Paranoia

-noun: a painful or apprehensive uneasiness of mind usually over an impending or anticipated ill; a cause of anxiety; an abnormal and overwhelming sense ofapprehension and fear often marked by physiological signs (as sweating, tension, and increased pulse), by doubt concerning the reality and nature of the threat, and by self-doubt about one's capacityto cope with it; extreme, irrational distrust of others; excessive or irrational suspiciousness and distrustfulness of others; distress or uneasiness of mind caused by fear of danger or misfortune; emotional distress, especially that brought on by fear of failure.

In popular terminology, a “paranoid” personality is characterized by suspicion and distrust of others; a tendency to look for hidden meaning behind other people's actions; argumentativeness; complaining; low tolerance for criticism; and a constant display of one's own talents, accomplishments, independence, and rationality.

This is something that I've been struggling with this year. How much can one person take before they start to wonder if, feel like, think that, even assume that everyone is out to get them? I wonder what Job thought when all that bad stuff was happening to him. Did he know that God and Satan had made a deal? If he had known, would it have a made a difference? How was he able to keep praising God through the storm? Did he know just enough or was he ignorant just enough that he was able to have faith that God still loved him and wanted what was best for him despite everything that was happening to him and his family? I get mad when I stub my toe... I don't how he did it. I know God doesn't expect us to be Job, but he is an example for us, right?

I don't know how he did it...

25 May, 2009

Fudge

I'm not happy with myself today.

I'm not happy with anyone or anything else for that matter. I'm just flat out discouraged. Frustrated is a good word. Disgruntled with a hint of self-pity. Yes, that's it. Why is it that part of the multi-faceted human condition is seemingly constant disatisfaction??? I hate that thing that is inside of me that, no matter how much I feed it, is never quite full. "All the labor of man is for his mouth, and yet he is never full." Ecclesiastes 6:7 Is it greed? Or did God put it inside of me in order to ensure that I wouldn't stop until I completed my pre-destined journey here on earth? Some might call me a snob, while others would say I have high standards. Does that make me stuck-up or someone with discriminating taste? I little of both I fear...

Today is Memorial Day. I feel like I spent the day having a pity party, until I tuned into the news and was reminded of WHY we have Memorial Day. Here I am moaning about what I need and what I want and what I don't have, when there are families who will never see thier sons, daughters, brothers, sisters, fathers, and mothers this side of eternity. I make myself sick. Which brings me back to the human condition. No matter what we have, we're never satisfied. We always manage to find something wrong wherever we are in our lives. Somebody's died, someone's dying, we're not making enough money, our car is too old, our house is too small, we're fat, we have wrinkles...

Thinking about all this makes me anxious to check out of this life (Motel 6), and check into the next (Plaza Hotel, NYC).

Until next time...

13 May, 2009

Happy Birthday Mom

Sixty years ago today, Rebecca Jean Scott was born at Keidel Clinic in Fredericksburg, TX. She was baby number four to Henry and Irene Jung, my grandparents, in a succession of five children. Needless to say, a lot has changed since then. Opa and Oma are gone now. And the clinic in which my mother was brought into the world is now Der Küchen Laden, a kitchen and cooking accessory store of all things (and very expensive I might add).

My Mom has had an ordinary life for the most part, and has experienced more than her share of struggles and hardship. Yet here she is, still working as hard as ever, doing all she can for her kids and her animals, who are her life. One thing that stands out to me about her, and she would never guess this, is her relationship with God. It's not perfect, but then again, no one's is. What it is, however, is very real. Raw, untouched, almost childlike, but not in a shallow immature way; in a very simple way. I admire her because she when you-know-what hits the fan, which it inevitably always does, she turns to Him with a humble heart and asks for His help. The older I get, the more this amazes me, because I a lot of people I know tend to blame Him instead of cling to Him (myself included).

The older I get, the more and more I appreciate my Mom. I guess that's usually the way it goes. Don't get me wrong, we still have our squabbles, but at the end of the day, we are like two peas in a pod. She jokes and says that we're twins born 32 years apart. It's funny how alike we are, not only in looks, but personalities too. I hope and pray that she's around for a long time. Not only is she my best friend, she's my biggest fan, and I can't imagine going a day without her.

Happy Birthday Mommy. I love you. :-)

08 April, 2009

Hearing God's Voice

It seems that throughout our lives as Christians, we all go through what some would call "phases" or "seasons". I refer to mine as "themes". As I reflect on my walk with the Lord, it seems a certain theme keeps recurring, much like the theme song in a movie. If my life was a movie, the recurring theme would be titled "Hearing God's Voice". Or rather not hearing God's voice as of late.

I've talked to several people about and it seems that I am not alone in this. As a result I've received books, CD's, inspirational e-mails, text messages, all intending to make me feel better about my plight. But at the end of the day, I still felt like saying, "Why don't You just come down here and tell me what to do!!!" Alas, nothing...

I came across this on Chip Ingram's blog and thought I would share it. It made alot of sense to me and hopefully it will to you too.

From Chip Ingram's blog Keep Pressin' Ahead

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Why Can't I Hear God's Voice?

Last week we aired, Your Divine Design, a series that helps you discover your primary spiritual gift; yet, what I hear from a lot of people is “Why can’t I hear Gods’ calling for my life?” or “I’ve prayed about discovering my primary spiritual gift, but I’m confused and don’t really know what God wants me to do with my life.”

Well, just so you don’t feel alone, I want you to know I’ve experienced the same thing a number of times in my life. As I a look at scripture, wise counsel, and reflect back on my own journey, I think there are some common barriers or roadblocks that keep us from hearing God’s voice and getting clear directions on our Life Mission.

ROADBLOCK #1 – “The Dropped Call Syndrome”

Have you ever been talking on your cell phone and walked into an elevator only to find you are immediately cut off… the call was dropped. Or, another more common experience for me is the new Super Target near our home. When Theresa and I go there we usually head out in different directions and then spend a lot of time trying to find each other…the reason…there is so much metal in the building our cell phones don’t work inside.

Like many, sometimes we long to hear a clear word from God about our future vocations and Life Mission, but we’re disconnected. Jesus said to his closest followers on the last night of his life, “If you abide in me (continue in my word for the purpose of applying it to your life) and my word abides in you, ask whatever you wish and it will be given to you” (John 15:7).

In other words, if we are not connected from the heart (unhurried time in Gods’ word and sharing our concerns with Him) we will not be able to hear His voice or call on our lives. God’s call first and foremost is to a reason (Jesus), not to a task. His primary concern and desire is relationship not assigning you a job to do. At times in my life I have allowed myself to get so busy “doing things for God” that it has destroyed my “relationship with God.”

Why would a loving, heavenly Father tell you and me what the next task is if we are spending time in the spiritual living room or around the table sharing hearts and sharing lives?

ROADBLOCK #2 – “The Answer is on Call Waiting”

Sometimes God is ready to give us the answer to the big questions in our lives, but we are preoccupied or simply refuse to respond to an earlier message.

A number of years ago when I was investigating this whole issue of God’s purpose for my life I got very frustrated with the Lord because it appeared He refused to answer me. I studied, got wise counsel, took some inventories to evaluate my strengths, but it all piled up into a heap of mixed messages and confusion. Frustrated and depressed, I cried out to God and asked Him why He was withholding His will for my life? I didn’t like where I was, I didn’t want to study and I desperately needed to know where to go and what to do!!!

Although it was not an audible voice, I heard the Lord specifically say into my ear, “Chip, why should I reveal more of my specific will to you when you are not obeying what I’ve already shown you in my Word?” Then Jesus reminded me of my ungrateful heart and that it is His will that I “be thankful in all things” (1 Thess. 5:18). I had resented in my heart toward a person and yet it was His will that I “forgive others just as He has forgiven me” (Matt. 6:12).

Often we cannot hear God’s voice about our future unless we are responding/obeying to what we already know. This was Jesus’ point in Mark 4 when He finished the Parable of the Seed and the 4 types of soil. To those who “hear” (respond in obedience) to the light they have been given (truth from the word) they receive more light (insight, direction and truth) but to those who do not respond to the light given, even what they love will be taken away.

So, as we continue this month to explore our gifts and calling, let me remind you to:

1) Stay connected – abide – enjoy and get to know Jesus as your #1 priority.

2) Face the hard stuff – obey – do what you already know is God’s will as revealed in His word so He can show you His more specific will for your future.

It’s a journey! He is patient! Don’t get discouraged! You are valuable. He wants to speak. He will speak!

I was scheduled to do a radio interview with Ron Brown, assistant football coach at Nebraska, for the Fellowship of Christian Athletes. We were going to do a quick 10 minute interview on what it looks like to be an r12 coach and r12 student athlete. As we started to record, I asked Ron if he could hear me because all I could hear was lots of static and about every third word. Needless to say, we had to reschedule until we could solve the static problem.

ROADBLOCK #3 – “Static on the Line”

The same is true with Jesus. He wants to speak clearly and powerfully to us, but sometimes there are a lot of other voices (static) that bombard our mind and make it hard to make out what He is really saying. Many of those voices are well intended and are planted deeply in our subconscious mind which magnifies the problem.

Sometimes family expectations (spoken and/or unspoken) can be so deeply rooted in our thinking that we assume it is God’s voice, or feel overwhelmingly guilty when we sense God speaking to us about a direction that might disappoint those we love.

My son, Jason, wrestled with this in pursuing his dream to play and write music. Although I never said, “All my kids need to go to college,” he felt that pressure because it was an unspoken expectation I had clearly communicated. Both my parents were teachers and education was a very high value to them and it was passed on to me.

When he told me he wanted to drop out of college for a while to really pursue his dream, I was initially less than supportive. Then, he began quoting familiar phrases about “Dreaming Great Dreams” and “Taking Great Risks,” and “Making Great Sacrifices” – all from my sermons. I realized within a few days that God had an Ephesians 2:10 plan for Jason that may or may not require college to fulfill. I warned him of the realities of “making a living” etc., etc., but let him know I would really support what he believed God wanted him to do.

To make a long story short, it was a very painful road and Jason would not give up. The result: he has been named the “Contemporary Christian Songwriter of the Year” for the past three years in a row; loves what he does; and impacts millions with lyrics and music that magnify Jesus Christ. He did finish school along the way (while rarely attending class) but his success was born of his courage to God’s call and he pursued it even when his Dad (me) thought he was crazy.

We need to honor our parents, mentors, and significant people in our lives. We need to take their counsel and weigh it seriously; but we cannot let others’ expectations and even genuine concern for us deafen us from hearing God’s voice and stepping out to obey Him.

Another static inducer is the culture that we live in. Our culture tells me that power, position, prestige, and wealth are what make me a “somebody;” so some vocations just don’t make the cut. We have elevated so called “white collar” jobs over working with our hands, while other jobs/careers are simply cast in a negative light, i.e., “If you are ever going to make something of yourself.”

For me that was going into vocational ministry. I loved to teach God’s word, I loved coaching and helping people, but the idea of becoming a “minister” or “ pastor” was not at the top of my list. My church experience and view of ministers was so negative I could not hear God speaking to me. I fought the idea; I didn’t want to become “one of them.” My warped view of people in ministry as those who can’t get a real job or those who argue about the color of carpet in the church were invisible and untrue voices that kept me from viewing God’s call as high and holy.

There are no “A” callings or “C” callings in God’s Kingdom. You were made to do something unique and special and have been prepared and gifted by God to do that thing. When you discover it and do it you fulfill God’s plan and experience joy in serving and provide supernatural results. Oh, that we could believe as Francis Schaeffer said, “There are no little people and no little places.” That means your place, your call, and your role matters for all eternity.

Find it! Enjoy it! Pursue it! You are one of a kind!

04 March, 2009

Einhundert Neununddreißig

A poem based on Psalm 139

From the first moment when in the hidden place that only God could see, He brought life to you and said "Yes" to who you were and all that you could be by His grace.

He has been a Father to you even before your earthly father saw the reflection of his image upon your face. He put His arms around you even before you knew your mother's touch.

He has cared for you as no one ever could. He has known you with prefect knowledge and kept you with perfect understanding. He has guided you with perfect wisdom; He has loved you and drawn you to Himself with cords of everlasting love.

-Roy Lessin

19 January, 2009

God Is Good

OMG! I have so much to tell you but since I have to be up early tomorrow, I'll have to give you the abridged version.

First- I got a car to drive while Sandy, my Jeep, is being worked on and it cost me all of $1. Yes, that's right, ONE DOLLAR! It belonged to my college roommate/friend who drove it up until a few months ago when she got married. It's in great shape and most importantly, it's paid for. God is good!

Second- I think I may have found a job! It's at a western ware clothing and boot boutique in Fredericksburg (I know - SO me, right?!). I've talked to the owner three times now and he seems very keen on hiring me, but he is admittedly hesitant to put me on the books because business is so slow. We talked this afternoon and I told him that I understood his situation and that he needed to do what was right for him, and that I would be appreciative of any hours that he could give me. Let's face it, something is better than nothing, and right now all I've got is nothing in the work department! Sooo, I'm going to work for him this Thursday just to "get my feet wet". Whew!

Third- Today I decided to apply as a substitute with Fredericksburg ISD. I'm thinking between Fredericksburg and Llano, surely I'll get some calls to sub. Even if this thing works out at the store, I know I won't be working there Monday-Friday, so there will be days that I can work elsewhere. That's where subbing comes in. Keeping my fingers crossed!

Fourth- I cooked supper tonight! You're probably like, "So, who cares? Everbody cooks." Well let me tell, not EVERYONE cooks. I never cooked until I moved to England. I never wanted to. For some reason I actually enjoyed it over there. I moved back two years ago and up until tonight, had not cooked a single thing since being back. For some reason I felt inspired to conjure up something yummy so I made this garlic and herb shrimp sautee with penne pasta. I don't mean to toot my own horn, but it was pretty much AMAZING!!! I think I'm going to cook more often. Not only did it taste good, but I really enjoyed cooking for my family. My mom and sister really seemed to like and I think they were impressed that "Sarah cooking supper" didn't translate into Hamburger Helper and canned greenbeans. Ha!

Well that's all for now. I've got an early start tomorrow. Take care and God bless. ♥

07 January, 2009

Here's to 2008

Seriously. 2008 was just plain weird. At least for me. I guess "weird" isn't really the right word here. Miserable is a bit too strong, though at times, many times actually, I was indeed just that. I'm realizing now (January 2009) that everything I went through last year did make me stronger, and I am glad for that. Because the thought of all the shenanigans I had to deal with, and it all having been in vain? I couldn't accept it.

Looking back to the last day of my Emmaus Walk (September 2007), my relationship with God was finally healed. I knew I loved Him more than anything or anyone else. And I knew there was no way I could ever go back to living for myself again. I was no longer a luke-warm Christian; I dedicated my life to Him and sharing Jesus with the world. These were all beautiful and REAL truths, but this new feeling of inner peace was so intoxicating, it gave me a false sense of safety. I was so open to anyone and everyone. The Bible tells us to guard our hearts. I thought mine was guarded. Little did I know I was about to embark on one of the most painful journeys of my life; a journey that would teach me through trial and error (and much heartache) what exactly it means to guard my heart. My heart's question was, "How do you guard your heart and still love people the way Jesus loved people?" Unfortunately, the only way for my heart to learn this lesson was through experience. It is for this reason that I'm not a big fan of life. I wish life was like school. Everything you need to know for the exam you can find in your text book or your lecture notes. In school, everything is structured, finite. Your professor gives you a syllabus at the very beginning of the semester outlining all of his/her expectations of you and their obligations to you. I suppose the Bible is kind of like that, but it's still so dang hard!!! It doesn't say- June 19th: you will lose your brother to cancer OR November 12th: you will meet your soulmate. You know the quote, "Experience is the hardest teacher, because it gives you the test first and then the lesson." Man is that the truth.

Suffice to say, I've spent the last year in a state of perpetual confusion and disappointment all because I thought I knew God's voice. I thought I knew what kind of ministry He was calling me into, and the people He was calling me to with (both be in ministry with and minster to). I thought He was telling me to go to grad school and where He wanted me to go. It seemed like all the pieces fit. It looked like everything was coming together. And then systematically, one by one, the pieces started to fall. Before I knew it, everything I thought I was headed towards was no longer there. It was as if I had been working towards a mirage in the desert. Maybe that's just what it was. Something my mind concocted out of desperation. Perhaps I was so desperate for something specific; a destination, a goal, that I convinced myself that I was hearing God's voice, when in reality it was my own. Someone once told me that there are four voices that Christians must learn to distinguish: yourself, the world, Satan, and God. You'd think it would be easy, but it isn't. Out of all four, I feel like the world is the easiest one to pick out, mostly because it so often blatantly contradicts the Bible.

I feel like I've lost a lot this past year, but I've also gained a lot. There are people who are no longer a part of my life but I'm not grieving them because in exchange I have insight that I wouldn't trade for anything. I've learned lessons that I know will serve me in the future, especially when I am involved in ministry. And in the end, I did draw nearer to my Lord, and that's always a good thing. In fact, it's the best thing that anyone can do in response to this crazy thing called life.

So here's to 2009, guarded hearts, and living every day for Jesus, just like He did for me. :-)